Endometriosis Update & Poem: Advocacy for Women’s Health

(Written 16. May 2023)

This year, I’m taking a stand – we need to invest more in #womenhealth!

Celine Gjersvik / CG Art & Poetry, poem here.

These were my words back in March 2023, two months later, I’ve gotten confirmed with both Adenomyosis and Endometriosis. A 10-year fight for my human right to be heard!

When I was 15/16 years old, I mustered the courage to visit my first gynecologist, seeking help for my abnormal pains and expressing my suspicion of having Endometriosis. However, my attempts to convey my symptoms fell on deaf ears as the doctor appeared unconvinced, downplaying the significance of my concerns. It was disheartening to be denied without further exploration or consideration. I was blankly told no. I left the appointment with a prescription for medication to manage my heavy bleeding, which had become so severe that I had to hastily rush to the bathroom during class to avoid any embarrassing mishaps. I found myself relying on the kindness of my female classmates, often requesting extra pads or tampons to make it through the school day without having to leave.

My period challenges continued, and so did the doctor’s unwavering “no” and reluctance to explore further. Looking back, I can’t even recall how many times I’ve heard that definitive denial, leaving me feeling unheard and dismissed. It reached a point where, three years ago, I gave up and convinced myself that this was the end of the road, resigning to find a way to cope with the pain. Resulting in a new OP prescribing me Naproxen as this was the only medication that gave me some relief from the cramps and the numbness in my legs manageable for work and everyday life. Even though some pain persisted, it really felt life-changing. Down the line today, that medication might have contributed to inflammation in my gut, which comes with its own set of challenges. This doesn’t mean that the medication should be avoided altogether, but it’s important to be cautious and aware of potential side effects and be prepared to address them if they arise. Additionally, it’s possible that my food allergies have also contributed to the inflammation, an aspect that my doctors are still investigating. This acknowledgment, recognizing the complexity of the situation and embracing shades of gray instead of black-and-white certainty, is something I have longed to hear from medical professionals. It’s a reminder that doctors don’t need to have all the answers, but they should acknowledge their boundaries of knowledge and remain open to different possibilities.

Even though I had given up or set aside my concerns, life had different plans for me. About a year and a half ago, I went to a gynecologist because of pain that I suspected might be due to a cyst, and once again my intuition was correct. However, during the examination, the doctor also discovered abnormal tissue and asked important questions to investigate further. This led the doctor to suspect that I could, in fact, have Endometriosis and encouraged me to seek additional tests. That appointment was a pivotal moment that set things in motion. At the time, that was it, but I did thank him dearly for actually following up, asking questions, and most importantly, both listening to me and believing me.

Last year, when my health took a complex turn with multiple infections, months of vomiting, and fainting episodes, I consulted various doctors, including specialists in women’s health. Following a thorough examination, the private doctor diagnosed me with Adenomyosis but recommended attempting birth control pills before considering a laparoscopy and raised doubts about the Endometriosis diagnosis. Unfortunately, due to several reasons, the pill was not a viable option, and other doctors also advised against it. As time went on and more tests and diagnoses were conducted for other infections and allergies, it became clear that my recovery was not progressing as anticipated. Eventually, multiple doctors encouraged me and the system with referrals to further investigate the possibility of Endometriosis, leading me to finally undergo a laparoscopy surgery. A surgical procedure serving a dual purpose: to diagnose and potentially provide relief if any abnormal tissue is found.

I vividly recall feeling incredibly anxious and frightened, but I didn’t hesitate to take the first available appointment for the laparoscopy surgery, which happened to be within a week of receiving the call due to a cancellation. In just a matter of days, I made all the necessary arrangements both personally and professionally to ensure a smooth transition towards the end of this challenging journey. There were numerous preparations involved, but I am immensely thankful for the unwavering support system I have in my life – their presence means more to me than words can express. To anyone reading this, please know that I am genuinely grateful for the support I’ve received throughout this entire journey – thank you!

As the days turned into hours, my mind was filled with racing thoughts: “Do I want them to find anything?”, “What if they don’t find anything?”, “What if they do?”

When waking up from anesthesia, I was for a minute, totally clear, and asked “Did you find anything?”, and the nurse told me “Yes”. Then I relaxed and was moved into the monitored area until the anesthesia wore off and the surgent came to tell me the full results – super happy that they did, in fact, find something: explaining my pains, but more importantly, alleviate the issue and improving my life by removing the tissue. I was in fact, right all along! Furthermore, the discovery of inflamed tissue and a knot near my intestines provided an explanation as to why incorporating flaxseeds into my diet hadn’t resolved my bowel issues. A little too much information for most, but actually a topic we should discuss more as our gut health is so important: Since the surgery, I have experienced regular bowel movements and the ability to enjoy food without worrying about bloating or stomachaches, apart from the expected recovery time and managing my food allergies – which remains an ongoing journey.

So what’s next? While some doctors have recommended a hormonal IUD, I’ve decided to wait until I’ve fully recovered from the surgery – given other circumstances. Currently, I’m gradually being more active, returning to 100% work and slowly back to my workout routine – hopefully in the near future. Most importantly, I’m feeling better already and for the second time in my life, I’m actually looking forward to having my period to feel the change (you can probably guess the first 😉 ). On the other hand, I’ve received some difficult news regarding possibility of infertility and related issues, but I believe that there is a time for everything. Right now, my focus is on recovering. Considering all my allergies as well, my 3,5 and 10- years plans need significant adjustments. However, I’m taking it one day at a time.

All in all, though I have these two conditions, they are manageable and you can live a good life – the right remedies “just” needs to be there – starting with being heard and diagnosed.

Love & Light / CG

My debut book “A Poetry Collection of The Broken and The Divine” is out for sale on Amazon (paperback and e-book). Keep posted for my upcoming book launch event in the near future.

Share a smile

🌞 Share a smile ☀️

Sunshine inside and out, 

That’s what I’m all about.  

Be the sunshine when you can, 

Like it’s part of your plan. 

For one is never fully dressed, 

Without a smile on one’s face,  

Even when it’s rainy days. 

Despite these facts, 

A smiley face can be just an artifact. 

Thus, here is a little spark and shine, 

For you to, hopefully, feel more fine. 

Whether we feel happy or blue, 

Let’s share a smile me and you.

Love & Light / CG

My debut book “A Poetry Collection of The Broken and The Divine” is out for sale on Amazon (paperback and e-book). Keep posted for my upcoming book launch event in the near future.

Endometriosis Awareness Month: Let’s Elevate Women’s Health

Endometriosis Awareness Month

Endowarrior is what we say,

But it doesn’t even begin to portray,

The many pains, frustrations, and disbelief,

From society and far wider than the school Dean. Yeah, back during gym sessions, class of strict teachers, and all those runs to the lo. “No more to the toilet for you”. Bleeding through tampons, pads, and jeans. We were just teens. So little empathy given for the young; “period pains are part of womanhood” came out from their tongue.

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So often we’re met with disbelief,

For apparently normality is what they all portray it and it seems.

But pains like these are far too much,

To be anything but normal as such.

Still doctors tells you no,

Even when you’ve done the research and almost know. A few tests and the right gyno could solve a lot, but then they lack knowledge of such.

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Cries, vomit, and unexplainable pain,

Will make any people go insane.

Far worse than pain itself,

Is the disbelieve in oneself.

Is all just in my head like they all ensured and said to me,

Or is the fault in lack of knowledge of thee?

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It’s time to wake up and fight,

Fight for a human right.

Right as a woman to be heard,

Not met with absurd.

Knowledge of doctors and society we must,

Let’s lift the problem and trust.

When someone has excruciating pain,

Don’t make them feel far from sane.

Hear their words and reassure,

Though they might lack the knowledge to find,

They will acknowledge you, and contact people who could figure out what’s “wrong with you”. Rather admit to the boundaries of knowledge, than just saying no.

Endometriosis awareness month, but let’s lift it to science of female health. Health is your greatest wealth after all, and I’m sure we’ll find it profitable for all. Investors, society and women around the world, knowledge must be power for sure. When one in ten females has the disease, I question how come we haven’t researched more and found a better cure? Painkillers, the pill, and operations are only useful for a while,

But there should be something more worthwhile.

Until then,

Fight your way through life,

For who says you can’t dance in life while still fighting a strife?

March is the #EndometriosisAwarenessMonth – join the conversation!

The aim is to increase awareness and highlight the symptoms of the condition that affects about one in ten women, with average of about 7 years to get diagnosed.1 The difference between endometriosis and adenomyosis is where the tissue grows, but the two are not mutually exclusive as adenomyosis is seen in 20-89% of women with endometriosis. Adenomyosis is when endometrial-like tissue grows into the muscle of the uterus, while endometriosis is when endometrial-like tissue grows outside the uterus (like on the ovaries, fallopian tubes)2.

My personal story

Last year I got very sick with a lot of different viruses and bacterial infections, resulting in severe constipation, vomiting, fainting, ER visits, and more. One part of the total package of examinations was testing for endometriosis and/or adenomyosis due to a gynecologist who had previously that year found tissue evidence supporting the diagnosis. Before this gynecologist, I’ve been to several different ones and GPs regarding my period pains and flood, but all previous healthcare professionals have turned down my inquiry for testing and been certain in their knowledge that I did not have either, or. Even the doctor who gave me coagulation pills as a teenager, nor the gyno whom I meet at 16 years old for pains. Teachers at my schools were harsh when I had to run to the toilet so much, even though my mother had given a note in advance… even when I was one of the few at secondary school who followed every lecture with a hawk’s eye and sharp pencils writing down every word….

One year ago, right after the first doctor who acknowledged me, I wrote the poem above. One year ago, I didn’t have the courage to publish it. After all last year, I grew, and this year, it’s out. This year I have the courage to stand by it and every word in it. This year, I’m taking a stand – we need to invest more in #womenhealth!

Resources

I’ve collected a few information resource links below, but please note that I’m not a doctor and to use critical thinking when searching the web. Moreover, please contact a doctor you trust or ask for a GP and/or a gynecologist with experience in the field if you resonate with the above and suspect it could be Endometriosis or Adenomyosis:

Videos for educational purposes found on Youtube:

• Endometriosis: Causes, Pathophysiology, Symptoms, Diagnosis & Treatment by JJ Medicine here. Short and to the point with info-graphics.

• Endometriosis – Overview (pathophysiology, differential diagnosis, investigations and treatment) by Armando Hasudungan here. Easy to follow drawing video, but a bit longer than the first video.

• Why Medicine Often Has Dangerous Side Effects for Women | Alyson McGregor | TED Talks here.

• What is endometriosis? A Mayo Clinic expert explains here.

• Nurse With Endometriosis Shares Painful Journey To Diagnosis | TODAY here. You’ll feel less alone with this one.

Websites

• Global Forum for news and information, endometriosis.org

Endometrioseforeningen (Norway)

• Legeforeningen (in Norwegian, but check the references for sources)

• Google Scholar search here

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References

  1. Endometriosis Awareness Month 2023. (n.d.). Awareness Days Events Calendar 2023. Retrieved February 16, 2023, from https://www.awarenessdays.com/awareness-days-calendar/endometriosis-awareness-month-2023/
  2. EMajak, B., G., Tellum, T., Ringen, M., I., Veddeng, A., Langeland, K., Alvirovic, J., Omtvedt, M., & Aas-Eng, K. (2021). Endometriose og adenomyose. Norsk gynekologisk forening. Retrieved February 15, 2023, from https://www.legeforeningen.no/foreningsledd/fagmed/norsk-gynekologisk-forening/veiledere/veileder-i-gynekologi/endometriose-og-adenomyose/

Love & Light / CG

My debut book “A Poetry Collection of The Broken and The Divine” is out for sale on Amazon (paperback and e-book). Keep posted for my upcoming book launch event in the near future.

Your Life’s ‘True’ – A Poem on Reflection and Purpose

When life is put on pause,
You really have the time to reflect upon your life’s cause.
When it feels like your body is failing you,
You get to reflect on your life’s “true”.
Whether it’s a passing fight, or a slight strife,
Who says you can’t dance through life,
While still fighting the strife?
So, for whatever reason your life is on pause,
Whether its sickness or at perfect health but questioning the cause,
Here are some words for your “was”.
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All your dreams by night,
They just might,
Show you a sight.
A sight of the life you love now or the life you want,
The life you miss, or you don’t.
Let your dream by night guide you towards the real fight,
The fight for yourself where you find light.
Your life is just as bright,
As pure daylight.
However, you are the one at the steering wheel,
if you want the life you love, you must be ready to work a great deal!
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Sure, for whatever reason a pause might not feel so right,
But maybe its just preparing you for that crossroad of a fight?
After all, you might see just how bright of a life you had during the fight or strife,
When you are finding your star to shine the brightest during those darkest times of your life.
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Reflect upon whom you are, who you were and whom you’re not,
Find your life cause by opening up the knot.
Be true to who you are,
For we both know, deep down we are all a star.

During the time I’ve been sick, and I still am, the hardest part has been “the accepting it all”; putting my life on pause. Despite the fact it might not have been the longest time (at least compared to a lifetime where you need your health), it certainly feels like it. Humans are emotional beings, so where logic might tell us differently, emotions often override us – another huge topic my brain has wrapped itself around while laying way too much in bed for my wandering heart.

On the brighter side, I have truly had the time to reflect on life – both awake and asleep during day and night. Though I believe dreams are only dreams by night, they still take up what our brain is capturing by light – so whatever you dream by night, reflects your life by daylight. Thus, I feel and know at a deeper level just how much; I love my workouts and what my walks means to me, my passions and fulfillment with my work and all my projects, and how dearly I love my family and friends – just how much I love the life I have created for myself, while also seeing the depth of the relations I have to people in my life – family, friends, and colleagues. Maybe it’s truly so that during the darkest of times, is when you really see the stars in your life.

My body needs some (a lot of) rest and hopefully my doctors find out the reason why soon enough, in the meantime I’m trying my best to take care of me by giving my body the sleep and nutrition it needs – while also letting myself do small tasks giving me joy like a few poems when I finally have found the words, having a friend over for a short time, and staying a little up to date on other things. Anyway, above is another poem I just wrote around reflecting on ones life’s purpose, passions and truth. Maybe it will be a part of my second book one day – who knows… For now I hope it may be a poem to guide you, or wake something underneath – cause underneath it all, who are you at your core?

/Love & Light, CG

My debut book “A Poetry Collection of The Broken and The Divine” is out for sale on Amazon (paperback and e-book). Keep posted for the book launch event in, hopefully, the near future.

Navigating Life’s Challenges: Fuck Life Sometimes

Currently, I’m quite ill, which is why I canceled the book launch event until further notice and have been quieter in SoMe… Through a lot of doctors’ appointments checking me head to toe, I’ve been keeping my spirit and hopes up by ridiculous jokes – maybe you have followed on Instagram and you know, – a little on the dark side, but at least they’re funny (or I like to think so). In any case, we are working towards finding out whatever it is, but to my frustration, but also a blessing of quiet, words of poetry have been far away and my mind (disturbingly?) quiet – probably because the only things I do is pretty much sleeping way too much, doctors appointment and eating – then repeating. However, I’ve honestly also gone through a lot of emotions and when I had a day of a tiny bit more energy, the words came pouring out again.

Please read the poem and words with an open mind and do not take it so heavily to heart – my words helped me get out my emotions of being scared, feelings of helplessness, anger, and sadness, but I’m not dying and I’ll get back on my feet soon enough; however, it’s written from a very emotional perspective… Contrary, maybe someone else out there is experiencing something similar, or far worse (though I severely hope not) – someone unique who now may have a few words for their situation, emotions, experience, perspective, or however one would like to phrase it of trying to capture a part of life.

I hope my poem, and poems, may guide you, or wake something underneath – cause underneath it all, who are you at your core?

Woman at a bridge watching the horizon

Fuck Life Sometimes

Fuck life sometimes,
All these fucking climbs.
Fuck the upper there, God, Allah, Universe, or whatnot,
Their lessons and their plot.
Fuck the journey when the destination blurs out,
No light at the end of the tunnel in sight,
Just yet another fight.
How many fights before some light?
Thank you for the lessons and hell,
Sure, made me strong with stories to tell.
Contrary, I’m far too close to the ring of the church bells,
My life feels like a jail cell.
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No work,
No workout,
No walk,
Almost no talk,
Nor friends and fun,
Projects on pause and life too,
Yeah, this girl barely put on shoes.
Bed rest with food, sleep, and repeat,
Add in a range of doctors to find,
Whatever is going on but digging deep in their mind.
A special case of some,
They’re not dumb,
But finding the cause is far from close,
Yeah, who the fuck knows?
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So here I am, in bed to sleep and sleep some more,
It’s such a bore.
Dreams of the life I had and of what I want,
It’s like life is all “a dream within a dream”,
But what happens when the sand runs out,
Yet another time I doubt.
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High hopes for a living,
Please be a little more forgiving.
Hopes for the morning, sunshine, and light,
But life is so far from bright.
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Yet I climb, yet another time,
And I rhyme,
But it feels like my life is running out of time…

/Love & Light, CG

My debut book “A Poetry Collection of The Broken and The Divine” is out for sale on Amazon (paperback and e-book). Keep posted for the book launch event in, hopefully, the near future.

Calling All Queens (& Kings): A Celebration of Strength and Diversity

All Queens should have a date night,

So bright,

And full of delight!

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The date is with food,

‘cause that is a good mood!

Add some wine,

And you’ll be fine!

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As a Queen, you should,

And surely you would,

Treat yourself good!

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So dress up for you,

And don’t feel blue.

Rather fall through,

On your high-heel shoe,

A promise to you,

To stay true.

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True to your heart,

And your art,

Because you are smart,

(and true to your heart.)

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Woman in heels posing

So have some wine,

And be perfectly fine.

Put together,

Light as a feather,

And enjoy the weather.

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Your crown might not show,

But you and me both know,

It is tough.

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Queens and Kings, the 8th of March we recognize the Queens! The whole week should be our scene, or even the year! The 8th of March marks International Women’s Day, and although we should mark it, let’s look at the broader picture. Let’s not congratulate women for their gender, but rather put diversity, equity, and inclusion on the agenda. Let’s discuss and also not agree on everything; let’s agree to disagree. A huge part of diversity and inclusion comes from different perspectives and having different opinions – which is good! Agreeing on everything is not the answer, but rather reflecting and asking critical questions to evolve into a better future.

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That being said, love & light to all Queens & Kings / CG